Look at the stars, and realize how small you are, and how small the obstacles in life are.

Look at the stars, and realize how insignificant you are. Yet you don't feel that you're worthless, instead you find calmness and you are comforted.

Ah Huat Lucky Tumbler

Mama got me the Huat运杯 today after I'd been constantly mumbling to myself that I must get the tumbler everytime I saw it on tv. 

I am so happy! :D

好运一杯子!

Half deaf is like half dead

Mama brought me to JMC this morning to consult the ENT specialist as my ear was feeling so uncomfortable and I was like half deaf since last night and only got better this morning. It was a long story about what I did to save my ear from suffering last night but it was a complete torture. I was so scared and immediately told mama to bring me to the doctor when she woke me up in the early morning when I was supposed to send bro to school.

The doc was not at JMC and we decided to make an appointment at RMC at night. Arrived there around 7pm where the doc went out to get coke as we were late. I then filled in my details and went into the consultation room.

Told the doc about what happened and how it felt like, he smiled at me and started scanning my ears by inserting a long thin stick. Idk what that was but it looked like a thick microfiber to me (ok, Wilson told me that it shud be an "otoscope") and it had light on its tip. It was so cool. He first inserted to my right ear which I claimed to be ok, it was clean and I could even see my cutie eardrum for the first time! It was clean as I cleaned it last night with cotton buds when I was trying to rescue my suffering ear. Then it was my left ear's turn. I was shocked. I was shocked because what I saw was a big black clump of earwax stuck in the inner side of the hole. It was really gross and kinda awkward but he's a doctor anyway.

Obviously the big clump of earwax was the reason of the pain after I used cotton buds last night to "clean" it which I actually made it go deeper than where it shud be. And I guess that few times I used cotton buds back in Miri to "clean" my ears had already caused the earwax to stuck in the hole. Only that last night I finally pushed them altogether that they became a big black ball blocking my ear canal. Ok gross enough I know. So he took it out for me and I was so paiseh cos imagine you need a doctor to clean your earwax for you but yah I couldn't take it out myself already as it went too deep inside. And the feeling of satisfaction when you saw a big piece of shit was out from your ear, shuang ah! I could then see my cutie eardrum again.

Now I regret not taking pic of my earwax. Ok I'm just kidding I would not post it of cos even if I did.

Doctor said no cotton buds are allowed anymore and we shud only clean our outer ears as the earwax will come out itself when they are "mature" enough. It was a super cool experience though despite all the pain that you felt like your ear was gonna explode so soon.

A long lost friend

Was tidying up my stuffs today and saw my box full of letters and cards. It is always there beside me actually, but I rarely wanna open it as it is too dusty and yes, I'm lazy. So I rarely do cleaning jobs. I found these letters from a good friend of mine back in primary school for about 10 years ago when she just moved to KL after standard 5. We stopped contacting each other after I stopped writing to her. My bad...

Some years later I thought of contacting her but I didn't have her number. What I had was only the address I used to send letters to, and also wondering if she still remembered me after so long. Tried to search for her in Facebook too but got no results. Honestly, I think about her sometimes and wonder if we still be able to meet someday.

So when I saw the letters this afternoon, I decided to try again. Not putting too much hope on Facebook this time. I was planning to send a letter to the previous address that I got. I really wished to find this girl. Tried searching on Facebook again, by inserting her surname and the area that she lives in. A pretty girl appeared from the suggestion box, and I decided to click into it, not missing out any chance that might make me found her... "from Sabah, Malaysia".

It was really her. Checked thru her photos and confirmed it was her and I sent a friend request without any hesitation feeling so so so so so happy. Not long after, I heard the notification alert from my Facebook messenger. Tot it was from some stupid guys but when I checked, it was from her with a big 😍 emoji and called me 萱颖. That moment I know that she's my long lost old friend. I was so touched that I almost burst into tears!

p/s: We had great chat. She told me that she moved houses for a few times after we stopped writing to each other. She once went back to her old place to see if she got any letters from me.

莫忘初衷

今早我在许多老朋友的 facebook 上问好。我不是无聊，我只是突然觉得好迷茫。

他们都有回复我，有几个甚至还送私信来了。

突然我的 facebook msgr 响了，这一位算是好久没好好谈几句了，之前是 one of the 最熟的。

还没把未来给谈上，她只单单把她来临三个月的计划告诉我，我就觉得遥不可及。
我很坦白地问了她：“我怎么还是仍然不懂自己该做什么，像是一无是处？” 我真的很丧气地问道。

她回问我：“怎么啦？你的梦想不是要拯救地球吗？想想你未来要做什么吧。”

我愣住了。
“拯救地球” 这四个字好像在我脑海里消失了很久，如今又慢慢地浮现出来。
我怎么会把我的理想给忘了，她却还记得？

我一直不停地挣扎，怪自己怎么不能像别人一样过着有理想的生活，一直逼迫自己决定未来要什么，却忘了最初的起点，忘了那个最有热忱的自己。

直到如今我还在寻找着，迷茫的寻找着。寻找着答案，寻找着我喜欢做的事，寻找着梦想。

老朋友提醒了我最初的理想，突然所有的事情都似乎 make sense 了。

你笑我要如何拯救地球，我却觉得我好像在通往拯救地球的途径了。
我走对方向了。

An unusual brunch date that leads to a promised gathering in 2018

Had a very special brunch date today, my followers on Instagram would have seen a few pics that I had uploaded earlier. 

Spaghetti with Seafood in Tomato Sauce

I didn't change my phone but using my own phone to capture this instead. I posted this photo on WeChat earlier and people kept asking whether I had changed my phone. How did I manage to take photo if my phone was on the table, right? The phone was somebody else's where she complained that casing for iPhone 5 is so difficult to find now, and I asked her to change to a newer version, heh.

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Introducing my date of the day, 

Well, after I have posted this photo on Instagram, a lot of my friends have been asking which guy is this I'm dating with. I'm very sorry to disappoint you guys that she is not a guy. 

She is a she, HAHA.

So you must be thinking why was this casual brunch date special, what made it so unusual as I've been mentioning about it. 

Did you notice that I was actually holding a pen trying to write something?

That's the point! What was I writing?

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So, this girl had an idea of sending each other a letter to the 3-year-later us. That means I had to write a letter answering the questions she prepared for me to a 3-year-later her, and vice versa. And basically I was forced to think a few questions for her, spontaneously.

It took me time at first as she had prepared the questions earlier at home. Then I found that it was so heart-felted and warm yet there was one thing that I could not guarantee is that I would still remember where I had kept the paper 3 years later :p

We had talks and jokes when we just started writing until both of us got into a serious writing mode. I suddenly realized that it had been a long time since the last time I was doing this kind of stuff, making cards, writing letters. I miss those days, regardless to whom I am doing these for, but to really show appreciation and to feel appreciated.

I wrote too long and even needed extra papers, but this girl was silently taking selfies -_-

in progress of writing, serious mode: ON

Till we got the letters done, and promised each other not to open it until 3 years later, which is going to be 21st July, 2018. It is quite a long time to go, but think about it, it was 2012 three years ago, and now it is already 2015. It sounds like I'm talking crap but this actually brings me to deep thoughts.

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No matter how will it be 3 years later, I sincerely hope that you're living a happy life, doing better than ever. Never give up on your dreams as I have faith in you.

Till our next gathering!

p/s: I have no idea why did you take a panorama view of me but thanks for all the decent photos! :)

Arctic Monkeys

ooh too sexy that I couldn't breathe